This Time Next Year.....

I’ve really upped my efforts this week and have tried to be good, whilst extending my culinary skills. I think it’s fair to say that my 2-½ pounds weight loss this week was more successful than the meringues I tried to make (low fat ones I might add). After 2 attempts and a gooey mess that looked like vomit, I’ve decided that shop bought is probably the way to go for me! However I did have success with some lemon chilli chicken and a chorizo pasta dish.

It's meant to be a meringue! Clearly not a successful one!

  I feel like I’ve got my focus back, I’ve unpacked a lot of stuff in my new house now, my dining table is up (thanks Dad) and apart from the occasional row with Pudding (my cat) about the fact he can’t go out yet till he knows where he lives, life is finally settling down a bit.

Pudding

  In our meeting this week, one member got a certificate for losing a total of 50 pounds, I respond well to treats, so I like the idea of getting key rings and certificates along the way. This lady is a pound off her goal weight and looks fantastic. She was saying why she wanted to lose weight and it came down to the fact that her joints had started to hurt and she’d just become a Grandma for the first time and in her words she didn’t want to be a “fat nana”.

  I think there’s always some trigger that kicks you into weight loss action. I can remember for one friend of mine it was that she got stuck in a bath in a hotel room and was so embarrassed by it she promptly joined weight watchers on her return. For others it’s not being able to fit in their clothes or a health scare. For me I think I’d had enough of feeling rubbish about myself and allowing others to make me feel bad. For me it was a gradual licking of wounds and starting to deal with my issues, which meant I could then start a diet and stick to it. There’d been many failed attempts along the way – a cottage cheese and meat eating plan and a distaerous boot camp!

  I used to think that once I’d lost all my weight my life would suddenly become perfect, I’d meet the man of my dreams (Matt Goss, Jon Bon Jovi, Idris Elba) I’d be happier at work and I’d receive a huge windfall and a holiday home in Hawaii. I used to blame the fact I was fat for everything not being perfect. Turns out that was an excuse, a way to stop me putting what was really wrong right. I can’t change some of the stuff that has happened to me, but I can face it and acknowledge that sometimes horrible stuff happens and you have to deal with it and move on. I’m not saying I’m over the death of my Mum and my friends Matt and Lawrie, because the truth is I will never get over them, but I can celebrate what they were to me and the love we had along with the amazing times we shared and what they taught me. I refuse to let my stalker take up any more of my time and after some pretty intense counselling sessions I can live with what happened.

Me, Mum & Lucy

Me, Lucy & Matt

  There’s some stuff I’ve been able to change myself, my last job made me thoroughly miserable and I put up with some situations I really shouldn’t have. Making the decision to leave and set up a business with my sister was tough and my Dad was great in saying “nothing that makes you cry every single day is worth this” I love seeing the business grow and it challenges me everyday. I remember telling some of my old colleagues what I was planning and one of them said “when you f**k it up, I’ll look for you in the dole queue” I know we’re not a multi-million pound corporation (yet) but his comments just made me more determined to succeed just so I can raise 2 fingers to him as I drive by in my Aston Martin on my way to the airport to board my private jet to fly off to my holiday home in Hawaii.

  It’s all these changes that have made me happier and as a result I think that’s triggered my weight loss, it’s not an easy journey to reach my slinky goal, but I’m getting there and I’m happier and as lovely as a date with Matt Goss, Jon Bon Jovi, Idris Elba would be, that’s pretty much all I’m looking for at the moment.

  What I’m trying to say is that don’t waste time thinking that when you’re slim, you’re life will be perfect, because it probably wont be. Put right what’s wrong now and let the rest fall into place in it's own time.

DISCLAIMER: Should Matt Goss, Jon Bon Jovi or Idris Elba want to take me on a date I am fully available!